I'm Making Myself Sick.

I am so stressed. It's barely been more then a week of school and I can already tell I will have no social life. I am now taking 16 credits which comes out to 7 classes for me. I work 15 hours a week and although I can do my homework, I can't use my computer where majority of my homework takes place. Have you ever been so stressed out that you feel like vomiting? Well, I'm practically at that point.

Today was probably the most stressful day I've ever had in my college life. Mostly because I had to be in a wheelchair for 4 hours for my Special Education: Exceptional Students class. I felt really sick this morning so I got to school later then intended to pick up the wheelchair. No one was in the office when I went in so after waiting for 10 minutes, I just took the wheelchair and left! It was my first time ever using a wheelchair so I was stoked!...stoked later turned into miserable. It was SO hard to use! First off, I think I picked the broken one because my front right wheel would jitter a lot and go in different directions and it was really hard to use. No one taught me how to turn corners or how to use the breaks...lets just say I was cruising from the Hinckley building to the Smith. It was pretty hilarious. I was using my hands to try and pull the wheel handles back but it was practically burning my hands! Whenever I could break, my wheelchair would turn sideways and I was almost tipping over. The entire 4 hours I was on that thing I was laughing. I couldn't help it! I have never hit so many walls in my LIFE! All of my friends were freaking out when they saw me in a wheelchair. Some laughed and said, "OLIVIA! What did you do this time!?"....thanks guys. But, even though it was the hardest thing I've had to do in a long time {{physically}}...it definitely opened my perspective on how hard it must be for those who are actually handicapped and have to be in a wheelchair at all times. It was overall a real humbly experience!

Today was just hectic. I can't even describe in words the stress I am feeling. Pretty much I am going to be anti-social this semester {{for the most part}}. I just really want to focus on school and mission and nothing else. Maybe some boys here and there...but even then I don't want to hang out with most of the boys that want to hang out with me. It's quite depressing actually...because if this was happening during any previous semester I would be so game! All I want to do is watch the finale of Bachelor Pd {{I know...still haven't seen it}}, catch up on The Lying Game, watch GLEE, and just sleep for the rest of my life.


♥ The Girl Who Loves Popsicles