Tis The Season To Be FREAKIN Jolly!!!

Wanna know what the best Christmas gift EVER is?...

seeing this boy.

Yeahhhh so I'm a little obsessed with the pictures I took of Paul via skyping today. Like, I think I've looked through them on my camera and on my computer about a million times already. I mean, HE EXISTS! He's actually a human being and real!! I haven't been writing to some imaginary friend this whole time! Haha! Here is how the conversation went... :)

I got to the O'Neill's house at 12:20 in the afternoon today to skype with Paul. It was weird. Ever since I found out about skyping with Paul, I haven't been as excited as I thought I would be. I kept forgetting about it until someone would bring it up in a conversation. Today for example, I was running late and I was fine with it. I didn't care when I got there and I really wasn't excited to see him. Shut up. I know. But, the second I got to his house I immediately got nervous. I remember saying to myself in the car, "Olivia, don't cry. It's going to be okay. Don't freak out!". I never ring the doorbell at the O'Neill's so I just walked in. I saw them all sitting on the couch with the laptop on Sister O'Neill's lap. Chris later told me that I looked SUPER nervous when I walked in.

As I was walking to the computer, his mom started to tell Paul that there was a "surprise" gift here for him. When I walked up behind his family and they held the computer close to me so he could see who it was...his jaw dropped. He then started to stutter with a bunch of "uhh" "hmm" "wait" "uhhh uh uh uh". Haha it was so cute! He did NOT expect me coming over! His family had already been talking to him for an hour and told me to come later so they were able to have time with him. They said how up until I came, he was such a chatterbox and the fact that he was shock when he saw me and had a loss of words was hilarious! But after a while...

He got back to his silly self :)

It was funny because while we were talking, his companion who was skyping right next to him to his family kept looking over to our screen. Finally, after him doing it for the third time, I blew him a kiss!! He smiled and went back to his screen but...the funny part...PAUL THOUGHT IT WAS TO HIM HAHAHA! He grabbed the kissed and put it in his pocket (like we used to do) and we all started busting up laughing trying to explain to him that it was to his comp and not him :) Sorry, Paul. Ha!

One of my other favorite parts about today was being with his family. I haven't been around them in forever! His parents already look at me as their other daughter and their siblings look at me as their other sister. Chris was saying earlier how they all feel like Paul and I are going to get married. He told me how it wouldn't be weird if Paul and I got married because I'm practically family already :) But...even with that said...I didn't really feel anything when talking to him. I was excited to see my best friend!...but that was it. Just to see my best friend. Not to see the only boy I've ever loved, not to see the first boy I've ever been in a real relationship with, not to see the boy who I would write notes to every Monday, or the boy that I told we were going to get married to each other when we were young and stupid. All I saw was my best friend. I mean, maybe I've just trained my mind to think that way and to think that it'll never work out between us; I mean, what are the chances! Or maybe not only am I protecting my heart from other boys but I'm protecting my heart from his as well...I don't know. What I do know was that it was amazing seeing my best friend again after so long :)