I came home from work today with a letterfrom Elder O'Neill on my laptop.
I FREAKED OUT!
I literally was jumping around dancing.
I know. Pathetic.
But seriously, this ALWAYS happens!
Whenever I'm really down
and I need a reminder of someone who is
praying for me every single night...
not because he's a missionary but because
he always has...it just feels so good!
He actually remembered my birthday :) Last year I kind of gave him crap for forgetting haha but I was just looking through all the emails I've sent him for the past month and I didn't even mention it...I can't remember if I did in my last letter I just sent him a weekish ago but even if I gave a hint...haha he sure reacted fast! It's so hard. I care about him so much and of course I hope and wish for things to work out but, I have to let go of him. I refuse to waste my time waiting around for him. Will I always love him? Of course! He will always have a special place in my heart and my kids will know about him but...I can't wait around wondering "what if?". I need to live my life and experience everything without being held back. But, can I just say it was sooooooooooo good to hear from him!? :) Like, I feel like I'm in lala land right now haha! I've been dancing around my room with his letter in my hand to the first 3 songs of my playlist. As hard as life is right now for me...this boy always seems to make it better someway or another. Haha he even decorated the back of my letter!
"Haha! I really did enjoy talking to you through skype. It was really good to see you. You really do have a smile that pleases the crowds :) "
I FREAKED OUT!
I literally was jumping around dancing.
I know. Pathetic.
But seriously, this ALWAYS happens!
Whenever I'm really down
and I need a reminder of someone who is
praying for me every single night...
not because he's a missionary but because
he always has...it just feels so good!
He actually remembered my birthday :) Last year I kind of gave him crap for forgetting haha but I was just looking through all the emails I've sent him for the past month and I didn't even mention it...I can't remember if I did in my last letter I just sent him a weekish ago but even if I gave a hint...haha he sure reacted fast! It's so hard. I care about him so much and of course I hope and wish for things to work out but, I have to let go of him. I refuse to waste my time waiting around for him. Will I always love him? Of course! He will always have a special place in my heart and my kids will know about him but...I can't wait around wondering "what if?". I need to live my life and experience everything without being held back. But, can I just say it was sooooooooooo good to hear from him!? :) Like, I feel like I'm in lala land right now haha! I've been dancing around my room with his letter in my hand to the first 3 songs of my playlist. As hard as life is right now for me...this boy always seems to make it better someway or another. Haha he even decorated the back of my letter!"Haha! I really did enjoy talking to you through skype. It was really good to see you. You really do have a smile that pleases the crowds :) "
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