"As Long As The Lord Was In Your Decision, I'm Happy With It"

So, tonight I broke up with Ryan :( It was SO hard! I wasn't expecting to get that emotional. He would say something simple like, "Make sure you sleep facing the wall tonight" and I would start crying haha. I'm such a cry baby. I even sang to him! I started to write him a song and finished it so I sang it for him...that's a HUGE deal in my book. But, it was something that needed to be done. I care about Ry too much to just drag it out until a few days before I left to actually break up with him. I knew that when I knew for sure that I would do it. I felt like up til yesterday I thought I knew what I wanted but my mind would keep changing. After conference I just sat there for a bit and knew what the Lord wanted me to do.

However, it was partly my decision too. I needed to think it through and then turn to the Lord {{D&C9:8}}. I just had complete trust that the Lord would guide me in the right direction and confirm whether my decision was right or not. Ry is such an amazing guy! How lucky I've been to not only date him, but to know him as a person. He truly encourages me to be a better person. I always tried to be my best when I was around him because he deserved nothing but the best. He kept me on my toes, that's for sure! I've learned so much from him and what I want in a eternal companion. Just because we're not suppose to work right now doesn't mean that we can't work out later on. If that boy is still around when I come home from my mission, I'd be stupid to not try and get a second chance with him. Thank you Ryan for making me a better person. You really are the best!

♥ The Girl Who Has Had A DTR In Front Of The Clark Building With Everyone Listening