Day 3.

Day 3: Your First Love

My first love was Paul O'Neill. I've said "I love you" to maybe two or three other guys before but it was never real love because I experienced that with Paul. Paul and I were in the same Trek family summer going into our junior year but we never met each other or really knew each other that well. After that, I apparently ran up to him at a dance {{that same summer}} and gave him a huge hug haha but I do not remember that at all. It wasn't until I started to go to seminary that we started to notice each other again. He was a witness at my baptism and although I really didn't know him, he was the only person that asked if I needed any help and said how he would love to be a part of it because he knew how special and big my baptism was going to be. I started to have a crush on Paul at the Crystal Apple awards and then my baptism hahaha I was constantly hugging him but using the excuse of "I'm just really happy and emotional right now" to cover the fact why I was hugging him so much. We finally started dating June 16th, 2008 and it was seriously the best relationship I've ever been in. We didn't hang out with each other every single day and it was nice that we went to different schools because then we could never get sick of each other lol. But we always hung out with the gang, hardly EVER did any PDA around them, and it was just the perfect relationship for senior year :) He broke up with me in May {{weekend after ball}} and it was something he felt the Lord wanted him to do; choose His will over his own. When he did break up with me, he finally got a job to help pay for his mission and he actually got the mission he had ALWAYS wanted since a little boy! There were so many blessings given to both of us after the breakup that at the end of summer, we felt really good about the break up and still had hope for us one day. He's on his mission in GERMANY now and comes home in...4 months! CRAZY!! People ask if we are going to date when he gets back or if we are going to get married haha and I always tell them no. I still love that boy and yeah, I want to see if it's going to go anywhere but I can't hopelessly wait here wondering "what if". I need to date other guys and move on with my life still. Plus, I really want to go on a mission and I will literally be turning in my papers the day before he gets home...hahaha sooooooo that gives us no time to see if anything is still there with each other. Paul has been a huge part of my life that I know I will never forget him. I mean, he received his endowments the DAY before my family got sealed in the temple and witnessed the sealing. His compassion, sense of humor, testimony, knowledge of the gospel, and many other aspects of him are ones that I hope my future sons hold. He's a great guy...I mean, he's my best friend!!

♥ The Girl Who Hates Kissing a Guy With a Scrubby Face Because It Hurts