Coda.

 {{disclaimer: this is not the guy my "...." post. that's an old, non important story.}}

i'm pretty skeptical when it comes to meeting guys who have a time limit on their stay. if i meet a guy at the end of the semester, i tend to not follow through with it because, what's the point? i'm also pretty skeptical when i do a post like this about a guy. but, i've been secretly talking about him for the past few weeks so now it's time to actually share who he is. "him", who will now be named Tanner, and i met in the winter and started talking back in...june? yes june. just little fb messages sent back and forth. nothing big. then i came home and janelle larson wanted to do a double date so i decided i'd ask tanner! yes, i asked him out on our first date haha. we hung out practically every single day after that date {{which ended up just being us two. i talked about it here}}. he's so fun and makes my heart smile! tonight was his last night in cali so we hung out and said our goodbyes. i don't know what's going to happen. i knew that i only had about 3 weeks with him but somehow he managed to have me smitten after the first date so i couldn't ignore him. we've talked about hanging out when school starts up since his family only lives 30 minutes away from me and he goes to school only 2 hours away. plus, i might have my car so making a day trip to visit will be easy. all i know is is that i have never felt so comfortable, natural, and my complete self with a guy in a very long time. the last guy i was able to be like that with was with paul. if this doesn't continue and things don't work out, i know that i can say i did give it my all. i did put my walls down. i did go into it with an open heart. i've never felt so comfortable with a guy so quickly before. you know when couples do the weird, goofy kisses? yeah, those have already begun with us haha and let me tell you, some are so funny! i've learned a lot from him whether he knows it or not. so, did i leave with a broken heart? i would say no :) again, the next time we see each other there could be nothing there. and that's okay! especially since the mission is STILL in the picture. but, it's kind of fun to be hopeful :)


♥ The Girl Who Likes Laying Down On A Blanket In The Park