Oh...What I Could Of Been.

today i got to hang out with my best friend, kitty aka katie hume, for the last time before we are reunited again during thanksgiving break :( THAT'S SO LONG FROM NOW! how did we spend our last day? jamba for breakfast. duhh. she had {{more like wanted}} to go to the mall to buy this amazingly super cute watch from fossil so we made a little trip out of it. i was convinced to buy this key lock ring that was $34...i know, super ridiculous. but it was so cute and haha katie is really good at convincing me to buy stuff. plus, i love rings and i know i'll wear it everyday so it was worth the purchase...still kind of ridiculous though.

she almost convinced me to buy these $60 pair of shoes that were ADORABLE and were 50% off but luckily i didn't have enough money on my atm card :) i feel like that was a sign haha. but, i'll make money this weekend so i could go back....nope. can't. as we were walking in the mall, we started talking about..."what IF you didn't become mormon." first things first, if i wasn't mormon, i would NOT be the person i am today. not even close!! luckily, the church found me at the most perfect time of my life. i was 13 years old and i couldn't wait to go to parties and get drunk. i even planned when i would lose my virginity haha! i know, maybe a little tmi, but i have it down in one of my journals. so pathetic haha but kind of funny. that's where my mind was at when i was 13 years old. i wanted to do the "fun, big kid" stuff and i couldn't wait. i would say i was a pretty good kid growing up but kitty's parents were...worried about me. they used to think i wasn't a good influence for her and haha lets be honest, i wasn't. katie used to come to me and have me make up a lie for her to use on her parents. hahaha! ohhh the life when we were younger. so young and stupid. but, if i never got baptized, never was introduced to the church, kitty and i would of been the worst trouble making duo ever. i can't even imagine the stupid stuff we would of tried together! i wouldn't be surprised if i would of ended up in jail with her one night.

we had a super good laugh about it and thought of all the possibilities but honestly, i know i wouldn't of been happy with my life. at all. the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints brings happiness. it has brought the light back into my life which i was missing. i can't imagine my life without the church. yeah, it's fun to play the "what if" games but i know that the church found me at 13 years old for a reason. heavenly father was mindful of where i was in life and knew my little life mission was crucial in my plan and that was to find the gospel and to share it with my family. i like to think that i was sent here in this mortal life to find the gospel and to help my family find it. i used to think why wasn't i ever born into the church and how life would of been much more simpler. but, because i know we existed before we came here, i just have a strong feeling that in the pre-existence i knew i wasn't going to be born into a member family and that it was part of my mission here on earth to find the light. and i've found it and i couldn't be more happier with life! i know i like to complain about my life, woe me, but really, i am so eternally grateful for how it's turned out.


♥ The Girl Who Watched Happy Gilmore For The First Time Last Night