Tender Mercy.

i got an email from this boy today. i sent him an email which to be honest, was really hard for me to write. it was me just apologizing and the funny thing is, he knew it was hard for me to write. this boy knows me SO well. his letter was so sweet and tender and honestly made my day. i was crossing my fingers that he would reply back to my email and lets just say people in the library knew i was a happy girl when i got that reply! he said all the right things. softened my heart. got rid of all the worries. answered my prayers with a sentence that he said. i am still in shock that he comes home in 9 days...9 DAYS! i remember the day he left and how i was starting to call him to tell him a funny story and realizing that he was gone. i remember going to jessica's apartment and crying and mikey telling me to "pretend that he's dead" so i can get over it...which brought more tears haha! i was so little when he left. 18. i was a baby. i didn't know what i wanted in life. here i am, 20, a new girl. a better girl i like to think. i'm just so grateful for the friendship we've been able to keep during these past two years. i feel bad for the girls who have their missionary come home and they are jerks to them. he's not my missionary, he's my best friend, and i know that he will forever be that to me. october 5th will be a crazy day for me...my best friend comes home AND i get to turn in my mission papers. two very exciting events. i'm anticipating that phone call...it won't feel real. i'll probably be laughing the entire time asking him if he REALLY is home even though he obviously will be. it'll be weird. but, i'm stoked! let the awkwardness begin.


♥ The Girl Who Is Excited For Devo Tomorrow