I love all of guy friends! Not only are they just totally fun to be around but, they seriously make me happy. Even when I'm in a sad, mad, stressed, annoyed mood...then can do the DUMBEST things and put a smile on my face :) It's funny...I have soo much more patience for guys then girls. Is that bad? But, whenever I have something bothering me or I have to vent...I almost always turn to my boys first. It's really easy for me to open up to guys so whenever I need advice on anything, they are the best people to turn to because they know me inside and out. I got to talk to one of my guy friends tonight. I guess since I've been home, the whole "dating" scene has just been so confusing/overwhelming. I think I'm just scared of marriage haha which is silly because that should never be something to be afraid of :) I miss being in a relationhip. A LOT. I miss being loved, wanted, cared for, spoiled, holding hands, kissing someone you're actually dating, all of that! I really do miss it. But, at the same time...do I want a relationship? So I talked to one of my guy friends tonight and he pretty much told me to just not worry about. Easier said then done...but he is so right. I need to just have fun with dating. Dating isn't something that I should stress over about. I shouldn't date just to get to that goal - marriage. I should date for the fun of it! I mean, keep marriage in the back of your mind because you never know if the guy you're just "dating for fun" could be your future eternal companion lol but at the same time...don't be afraid either. If you start dating a guy, become best friends, and then realize what the two of you have is special...you're going to know it's right. You might not of wanted it now but, it's going to feel so right that it won't matter when you get married. So, I've decided, when I go back to school...I'm just going to date for fun. Not going to worry about getting married and not going to worry about falling for a guy. I need to just open my heart to people. For some reason I have been having a strong feeling I'm going to meet a guy this semester, date him through fall semester...then get engaged. I don't know WHY but it has seriously been on my mind since I've been home. If it happens...it happens but, I would really love to go on a mission :/ Ahhhhh why can't I just be 21 and single already!
I want you to know, that it doesn't matter.
Where we take this road...someones gotta go..
Liv
- Olivia Baeza
- I'm just your typical girl who loves to lay around in sweats, a messy bun and spend quality time with those she loves. I've learned that it's the little things in life that makes it so beautiful. Even when life gets hard, little things like a smile or a simple "I love you" can make all the difference. I truly believe in this. Never think that your life doesn't matter - it does. It matters for eternity. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. And I am a Christian.
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