If you knew me, you would know that I prefer to have more guy friends then girl friends. If I could define the difference between a boy and a girl, this would my answer. Guys are just easier to get along with, they don't care how you look around them, they are good listeners, they are full of stupid boy humor, and they will always have your back. Girls are harder to be accepted by, depending on the group of girls you're with will determine the way you dress so you don't get judged, girls are good listeners but can never stop talking (including myself), girls can be funny but they are definitely more good at being catty, and they can easily stab you in the back.
As I've mentioned previously in a post before, I had the stupidest drama I think I've ever been apart of during my first semester in college. I went in wanting to meet a lot of people and get out my comfort zone and make good friends. You know, you always hear about how the friends you make in college are the ones that matter the most then the ones in high school because those are going to be the people you will be with from that point on. Those friends will typically be the ones attending you bridal shower or wedding per say. I was able to be apart of this big group of girls. Where was my red flag?? It wasn't that I didn't like the girls, it was just that there were WAY TOO MANY OF THEM! I felt really overwhelmed by being around so many girls as weird as that sounds. I remember not seeing them for maybe two days in a row and some asking why I stopped hanging out with them. It was then that I realized that something needed to change because as much as I liked hanging out with them...I wanted to meet new people as well. Meeting new people and becoming friends with new people kind of included an ex boyfriend of one of the girls. I felt that when the two were dating, I couldn't talk to him! I felt that she put this block force around him, keeping away every girl from talking to him; or at least me from talking to him. Those who are reading this who knows what happened may thing think I'm over exaggerating but I truly felt like that at times. It was so dumb. So, it wasn't until they broke up that I was able to get to know him more. But of course, that started drama. Surprised? Of course not...
This was when the "girl law" came in action and haha that was probably the second dumbest thing that happened to me that semester, learning that there was such a thing as a "girl law". I mean, come on now! Long story short, things just haven't been the same. I'm so glad, to be honest, that I picked hanging out with the guys over them. Even though it was completely awkward when I would go over to the girls' dorms with the guys..the awkwardness was worth it. I knew that they had my back and they were not going to put up with their crap and neither was I. I definitely lost almost all the friendships I had with the girls but...it doesn't bother me. I'll be nice to them because it's not like I hate them or strongly dislike them and that is just the type of person I am. I just don't think I could gain that friendship in them anymore. Some of the girls I still love to death but now I don't know what to think of some of them...
I know there are three girls that are are real to me but I don't know...I just wonder if they still say anything bad about me. I just heard some stuff that was said about me and I don't know if it's true. I hope not because they are really sweet girls. Crossing my fingers on them!
Goals For Spring Semester:
1. Be close friends with my 5 other roommates because they will be the ones I'm living with and will automatically turn for support.
2. Hang out with guys more because they will always have my back
3. Don't fall for fake personalities of girls
4. Be me at all times. If they don't accept me for the person I am, then don't even try to get their approval because they don't deserve it.
I am a bubbly, naturally flirty, sweet, caring, loving, kind of motherly girl who honestly just wants to be friends with everyone. I really do care for people and I honestly give people way too many chances which is why I get hurt in the end like I did today. I'm not perfect at all. Yes, I too can be catty and gossipy but there is fine line between actually being friends with someone or being completely fake and talking behind their backs. What am I going to do when all of my boys are on missions?? :( Life will be tough when that day comes.
Liv
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