Being in love
The last time I was in love was my senior year. Life was so free when I was in love. Nothing else mattered but him. Knowing that someone cared about me so much, wanted to be with me, thought about me all the time, missed me, loved hugging me, loved to see my smile everyday...I miss that.
I don't think I'll necessarily fall in love with a guy this semester because it takes me a while to realize if I really love the guy or not. Plus, there isn't even a guy here that I have met that I feel like I want to date. But, I do hope to find someone. Maybe not necessarily the one but someone who cares about me. Everyday I step foot on campus I see new couples, couples that are engaged, or married couples. It kind of makes me sad. I definitely don't want to find a random boy and just date him so I can have that feeling of someone caring for me but I do want to find someone. It's been over a year since I've had a relationship. I know that there have been guys that I could of been "official" with but...sometimes I get scared. OK. I do get scared. I get scared because I don't want to get hurt like I did the last time. But, I can't be afraid to fall. I can't be afraid to get hurt. I need to stop protecting my heart and allow it to fight on its own.
"If you live up to your privilege, the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates"
-President Hinckley
The last time I was in love was my senior year. Life was so free when I was in love. Nothing else mattered but him. Knowing that someone cared about me so much, wanted to be with me, thought about me all the time, missed me, loved hugging me, loved to see my smile everyday...I miss that.I don't think I'll necessarily fall in love with a guy this semester because it takes me a while to realize if I really love the guy or not. Plus, there isn't even a guy here that I have met that I feel like I want to date. But, I do hope to find someone. Maybe not necessarily the one but someone who cares about me. Everyday I step foot on campus I see new couples, couples that are engaged, or married couples. It kind of makes me sad. I definitely don't want to find a random boy and just date him so I can have that feeling of someone caring for me but I do want to find someone. It's been over a year since I've had a relationship. I know that there have been guys that I could of been "official" with but...sometimes I get scared. OK. I do get scared. I get scared because I don't want to get hurt like I did the last time. But, I can't be afraid to fall. I can't be afraid to get hurt. I need to stop protecting my heart and allow it to fight on its own.
"If you live up to your privilege, the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates"
-President Hinckley
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