My family told me today that they didn't want to be Mormon anymore. It was so weird to last see them all happy about church and then to come home and them just completely not wanting it anymore. I couldn't believe it. It was hard to hear how my parents felt about the church because as much as they said they weren't trying to "persuade" me to change my opinion...I kind of felt like they were. The second my dad started speaking lies about the church...the spirit was immediately gone. It was weird. Then, I was able to sneak into the conversation when he paused and all of a sudden started to bear my testimony. I looked my dad straight in the eyes and saw something I had never seen before. I felt like I was in his soul in a way. The look in his eyes was something I had never seen before. For a split second...I felt like he believed me. But, he then started talking lies about the church again. I don't think I've ever had this bad of a headache in my life until today. It's weird, I feel like my life should be crashing down hard on me right now but...I feel like it's gonna be alright. It's going to be really hard to go to church alone again and to try to live the church standards alone but...I did it for 4 years before so it shouldn't be that hard? Don't get me wrong, I'm an emotional wreck right now but...I want to believe it's gonna be okay. I don't know, I guess I never thought that this would ever happen in my life. But, whether they like it or not, they will soon realize that they are wrong and that this church is the true church. It may take years from now but...they'll figure it out sooner or later. I love my family with all of my heart.Heavenly Father gives us trials he KNOWS we can overcome...I know I can overcome this.
Olivia,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you are going through this. I can't imagine how you are feeling. I guess the only thing there is to say is that I am so proud to call you my friend. I admire your strength and your courage! I know that this gospel is Christ's restored gospel and that with Him all things are possible! I know that at times that isn't the easiest thing to remember, but I am so thankful for all that the gospel has brought into my life. The Lord gives us opportunities to allow our faith to grow. Sometimes we don't understand why things happen, and there probably aren't any words that I can say that would make this any easier for you. Just know that you are a daughter of God and that He loves you! I love you! I just think the world of you! If you ever need a friend, know that I am here! You are so amazing!!
hey girl! I just want to say I love you! And also your strong testimony strengths mine! You are such a strong person with faith that is unbreakable in the church and your family. And I admire that! Sometimes trials happen just because Heavenly Father knows that they needed that trail as well and he knows how to make things work. I want to tell you that if you just ask him he will give you the strength to go to church alone and to be the example to your parents. He loves you so much! Thanks for sharing your testimony with everyone! :] Love you girl! And remember I am here if you ever need to talk!
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