True Confessions

Two things happened within 30 minutes apart tonight that was exciting and not so exciting...

First off, I confessed to a boy that I had a crush on him. I couldn't tell him in person lol because that would take me hours to finally say so I of course wrote it on paper. I've told guys in person that I've liked them before but...I sincerely, truly liked this one guy. Not that I've never truly sincerely like someone when I told them I liked them...but this was different. If he was an return missionary...I would of so tried to get him! But, he isn't and "been there, done that" with preemies (boys who haven't gone on missions). When I wrote his letter out last night...I couldn't believe what I was doing haha! It's not everyday that I can tell a guy my feelings for him when especially since I thought I only looked at as a friend but then realized I liked him the whole entire time. Nope. Not me at ALL! But I did tell him and I'm glad I did. A New Years Resolution for me was to live with no regrets. I knew that if I didn't take the time to say anything now, that I would completely regret it! When and if I serve a mission...I won't be seeing this kid for almost 4 whole stinkin years! It will be pure luck if we got to see each other again. He's definitely my best guy friend that I made in college and someone who I hope I can keep a close friendship with. He is just a one of kind!

Minutes later after this happening...one of my ex boyfriends starts to talk to me on facebook. It's funny. Every time that I seem to be doing really good in life or with boys or really anything, he somehow comes into the picture. There isn't any feelings for him whatsoever but, it's kind of one of those breakups where you wish you can just forget about. You know what I mean? I mean, fun guy and all but..I don't like to look back to that relationship and whenever he starts to talk to me, I can't help but look back. That relationship was DEFINITELY something that Heavenly Father put in my life and made me realize the importance of getting baptized into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints really was. Good conversation but...no point of really trying to be "good friends".

Some days can be really hard but know that there are always blessing waiting for you in the end.


Liv